Bryan Joseph A. Reas
Psych 111 MWF 7:40 am – 8:40 am
Who
Am I?
It
took me some time before I had finally decided to answer this question. I mean
really, for me the question is more like philosophical even though the sentence
is kind of a straight forward and specific. I guess you cannot really define
your own self without having to find out your own purpose in life and ever
since highschool, I have been chasing this purpose that up until now I am not sure
if I had found it.
My
name is Bryan Joseph A. Reas, 21 years old. A 4th year
BS-Information Technology student of Ateneo de Davao University. The eldest son
in our family and is being expected to follow the footsteps of my “ever
successful” father. I had a sister who is also currently enrolled in AdDU. My
mom is a typical housewife while my father is an OFW Engineer at Qatar. Well
basically that is the general definition of the boring part of me. How I wish I
am like Tony Stark who can easily define his own self in an instant: Genius,
Billionaire, Playboy and Philanthropist.
I
basically had done everything I could in order to stand out with the people
around me, and in order to gain a definition for myself that everyone can be
truly proud of. Back when I was still young, innocent and up to the early stage
of my Teen hood, I first tried being a singer but due to unexpected
circumstances (puberty) it didn’t last
as my voice changed drastically. Then I also tried being a dancer and ever
since I tried-out on our High School Dance Troupe I fell in love with Dancing.
I thought to myself that being a dancer is what I really wanted. I learned
different cultures, styles and genres. I was passionate about dancing and maybe
because I had friends (who also dances with me) who motivates me to dance. Then
College.
Everything
changed when I entered college. College was the most stressful, difficult and
the most defining chapter that I had yet to finish. I first tried being serious
which means “Follow the footsteps of my
father” that is why I first enrolled in an Engineering program. My first
course was Computer Engineering. A course that I really wanted, but I only
lasted for a year. Maybe because I didn’t quite understand enough what that
phrase really means and took it literally. I also tried to pursue dancing as a
career and as a status quo, which is why I auditioned to Ateneo Dance Troupe
but I didn’t make the final audition which is up until now still disappoints me.
Then I enrolled IT. IT was really never part of my plan. It’s more like of a
plan B with no other choice but to take it or else I have no future. Luckily IT
was really the one who would nurture me as an individual. This time I more
motivated and more determined. I also nurtured my creativity skills and would
help me become a Digital Artist (Graphic Designer). And now I basically sealed
my status quo, reputation and my future.
Well
that is my story but not the whole story I guess. So, can I now answer the
question? I am not yet quite sure. But I think I can say what others think of
me.
I
think others would think of me as a Happy Go Lucky and a YOLO person. Happy Go
lucky in a sense that most people cannot imagine me being sad, devastated,
crying nor being heart-broken. Maybe because they were used to see me laugh,
smile and have fun. I am not really the type of person who exposes my emotional
side because for me exposing it would be exposing my weaknesses. I am more of a
person who travels different miles in order to share some smiles. Which basically
means I don’t want to see that person sad or frown. Just when they thought that
everything around them is against of them, I would be there to comfort them,
guide them and make them smile
especially when they are my closest friend, a trustworthy friend, best friend,
family and a special someone despite having my own personal problems. When I
have personal problems I never really told anyone first, I always make sure
that I fix it on my own. Then if I seem to lose some hope I always went to a
chapel/church to pray then if I can no longer handle it I would share it
eventually to my friends then to my family. Others would see me as an independent
type person but honestly I never decide for my own, I always rely to peers. I
am also an outspoken person but that really depends on what situation I’m in
to. I also always make sure that I would do anything just to make that special
person happy even though the outcome isn’t really what you’ve expected or
painful because for me their Happiness is my happiness. It may sound corny or
martyr but that’s just basically me.
YOLO
is an abbreviation of the motto which me and my friends adapted “You Only Live
Once”. I am the type of person who never waste a damn (sorry for the word) moment.
Well maybe because I had wasted a lot of moments before or wasn’t even given enough
opportunities to have that moment. I make sure that every moment that I spent
would be memorable.
Does
Personality change? Well, not really. For me, a person’s personalities may seem
to have changed because that is what that person want others to think of them
but deep inside they know that are still the same person from the start.
Have
I for seen or found my purpose in life? Honestly, I don’t know and I don’t want
to know. Right now I am dealing with the present, learned from my past and
making plans for my future. My own journey of knowing my own self and knowing
my purpose may seem to be endless but I know eventually that journey would
stop. I cannot really decide of what kind of person I am and I guess that doesn’t
really matters. As long as I am living the life and always believe of what I am
capable of (even though sometimes disappointments hurts), I would still
continue to share so some smiles to those person(s) I cared the most and need
it the most.
For
those people who spent some time reading this seemingly waste of time paragraph
of who I really am (LOL), In order to get to know more about yourself you must
not be afraid to take risks, rejections and disappointments. Travel. Explore.
Do what you love. Never settle for less than what you know can achieve. And always
make sure that you will never waste a moment because sometimes some moments
happens only once.
